I got some really discouraging news earlier today and where better to vent about it than on the world wide web??
First, some background: We moved back to Paris. At first, my plans were to just suck it up and drive back and forth to Dickson each day to work, but I quickly realized just how much of a toll that was going to take on me. So I found out that there is an open position in the Paris BOPP office and asked to be transferred. Me, being the stand-up guy that I am, was completely honest with the manager of this district and told him about my school schedule and that I would have to work an weird schedule in order to get my 37.5 hours each week. When I informed him of this, he talked about how outstanding it was that I was in law school and how great it is that I am trying to better myself. Unfortunately, me trying to better myself ended up screwing me over.
I got an email today from the manager telling me that I would not be able to transfer to any office in his district because my school schedule conflicts with their office's late reporting day. He thanked me for showing interest in coming to work less than a mile from where I live now and wished me luck.
When you work for a state government, you are pretty much at home with the fact that you are not going to get paid very much and you are going to have little to no chance of advancing unless you know the right people. Not everyone is like this. My friend Jamie worked hard and made it to the top that way, but he is really one of the exceptions.
When you are an employee and looking the big-wigs in the face, they will tell you all of this bull about how they want you to better yourself and make a better life for yourself and your family, but then they do the exact opposite to help you achieve that goal. Here I am, trying to educate myself in order to provide a better life for my family that the State of Tennessee will never give me; and instead of seeing that that happens, they refuse to work with me. The State has never been opposed to its employees working flexible schedules. All they care about is seeing to it that work gets done and the community remains safe. They care nothing about their employees though.
I don't mean to make this sound as harsh as it probably does because Lord knows that the office I work in is nothing like what I have described above. I love our office. We all get along, and I can honestly say that I enjoy going to work every day there. The management is some of the best people that I have ever worked for. David, the manager, has gone above and beyond to try to help this transfer go through. I just wish the receiving end of the transfer request had been as open and concerned for people as he is.
I don't want to transfer because I don't like the office. I want to transfer because I have a commute of an hour and 40 minutes one way. I get up at 5:30 in the morning and get home around 6:00 each evening. There have already been several mornings when I almost fell asleep about half way into the drive to work. I know that there are people in Dickson that I could stay with during the week, but that would only last as long as the first phone call I got from Kenna, crying that she misses me and wants me to come home. I've gotten one of those before and hope I never have to hear one again.
You can probably tell that I'm a little angry that this didn't all work out like I had hoped. I know I'm not the one in control of things, but it doens't help much right now to tell myself that there must be a reason that this didn't happen. Right now all I can think about is that I work for an organization that expects alot out of their employees and then shits on them the first chance they get.